My grandpa is in ICU again, and this time he may not come out from it. The doctors warned us to prepare our hearts...
我不知该怎么做心理准备。做了准备，心会好受一点吗？
I don't know how to prepare my heart for this. Even if I did, would my heart hurt less?
表哥说他瘦得可怜，躺在病床里，一条管子叉进他的肺部辅助他呼吸。不能讲话，不能大小便，不能吃饭。每一样“不能”就有一条管子叉近他的身体里去。
Cousin William went to see him last night before I talked to him on the phone. He said grandpa lost so much weight. There's a tube inserted into his lunges to help him breath. He can't speak, he can't go to the bathroom, he can't eat...apparently, they have a tube for everything he can't do.
医生觉得，老人84，这样拖下去会给他带来更多的痛苦。如果家人同意，他会把这些大小管子拔了，让外公安详的去。。。
A doctor spoke to my relatives. He thinks that keeping grandpa alive this way brings him more unnecessary sufferings. He suggested that if it is okay with us, he would pull the plugs and let him go in the most peaceful way possible. After all, grandpa is already 84, the hope of him getting better from this is slim...
痛苦的让他靠机器活着，还是帮他决定离世的日子呢？对我来说，两种抉择都是错。
Should we leave him to suffer under all these tubes? Or should we decide for him the date which he can leave this world? These two options to me are both unfair to him.
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亲爱的外公，你可以自己选择吗？
Dear grandpa, can you choose for yourself?
3 comments:
wise words. I agree. Both decisions are way out of this world; I wish he could say for himself what he wished. Glad you guys were able to fly out on such short notice. Good to see you guys again.
我的外公也正在Sufferring。昨天去看他，他再阳台的躺椅上正睡的安详，下午橘色的阳光照着他的脸，瘦得骨头的轮廓清晰可见。还不知自己已经是癌症晚期。疾病正在一点一点地吞噬他。死亡正在一步一步的走近他。精血被癌症逐渐吸光。他不知自己即将离世。我走过去，他醒了，像婴儿一样对我说：病了。。。。。。。再无其他言语。。。。。
是啊，老人家的病痛我们想帮都帮不了。你的外公也好可怜。。。不知能说什么来安慰你。但是我知道我们两都很爱我们的外公。
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