Anticipation
One thing I realized today while doing laundry is that anticipation is what brings the joy into life. It's the "hype" that gets us all excited and creates the "want" in us. So, what I'm saying is that sometimes, it's better to not have something. I mean, think about this. I have a 13 inch tv bought from a garage sale for 10 bucks US Dollar (which is worth sh*t). So, Dali and I always wants to buy a new LCD flat screen TV, probably about 26-37 inches, depending on price and deals. So, every time I go to a shopping mall, I love to look at TV. I would tell Dali, "Hey look at this", and she'll say, "no, look at THIS." And that's our joy, our anticipation for a TV that we'll probably won't have for our while, and that is a GOOD thing. Because we anticipate it, we look forward to getting it, and it brings us joy and happiness looking at it together.
I am jobless, and let's imagine my favorite company calling me up for a interview, wouldn't that make me excited, wouldn't that make me the craziest Chinaman that Dali has ever seen? Wouldn't that make me do all the necessary preparation I can to get the job I want? And let's say in the interview, things go perfectly, I get the job, with a high salary, and when I get home, wouldn't I have the greatest temptation in the world to brag? Wouldn't I be filled with great joy because I'll be "anticipating" my new job?
I would be anticipating what my "new" life will look like, and dreaming and imagining of what my future will look like, and I'll have joy, excitement, happiness, and etc and etc...
Then I'll work 9-5, maybe longer, and days go by, then weeks go by, soon years go by, then what?
How is it that so many people don't like their job in this world?
What changed?
Anticipation, the anticipation is gone.
I honestly don't think having what we want is really what we want. I think we're suppose to anticipate, to hope, to dream, and to look forward to things that will happen. Because, that's the moment. That's the moment of greatest joy. The moment when things hasn't happen yet, when it's still new and fresh, and when we wait to get it.
2 Corinthians 4:18, "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
Live each day, each hour, each moment, anticipating. Hope, dream, imagine the greater things to come.
