Time To Get Away

Two weeks until Hong Kong. Tim and I will spend Chinese New Year in China for a change. And this year, the new year's day on the lunar calendar happens to fall on Valentine's Day. Yohoooo!
First we're going to stop by LA to see our wonderful college friends whom we haven't seen for 2 years. We want to also revisit many places where Tim and I used to go on dates back in college. We are even going to a TV taping of the Jay Leno Show in Burbank.
My winter depression has gotten to me these days. I really need to get out of here and be in the warmth.
It's time to pack up and get away...

If

If my baby were still alive inside me, it would have been born this month. We didn't even know the gender, all we could refer it by is really "it".

This morning I just woke up thinking about IT.
I wonder what I would have look like as a 9 months pregnant lady.
I wonder what amount of food I'd be eating.
I wonder what IT would look like by now under ultrasound.
I wonder if IT was a girl, because I'd like a girl.
I wonder who IT would look like more. Me or Tim.
I wonder if we'd have a name for IT already.
I wonder if we'd still be in Boston.
I wonder if labor would be painful or easy.
I wonder if I'd be so tired or so excited.

I am mourning for my lost today, but in a healthy way. I am not depressed but hopeful. God has healed my wound. I am looking forward to something new. I don't think I could have thought about IT this way few months ago. It would have been too painful. But now I can, because I know that it's in the past, and while I am remembering the past, I have to keep on living forward. The past makes who I am, but the future holds whom I will become. I am renewed by my Savior, Jesus Christ my Lord!

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On the other note, dad and mom called me last night to tell me that yesterday was our 14 year anniversary of immigration to the US. That caused me to ponder upon a whole new set of IF's. But the most important IF was: what if I didn't meet Tim?
NOOO, I am glad things turned out the way they did. I wouldn't want it any other way but to go through life with Tim, my best friend. I am also glad that dad and mom are healthy and strong. They're breathing clean air, they're enjoying the beautiful greens in California all year round. They're taking care of a church and helping people who need their help. They get to travel to Boston once a while to see us. They've been to the Holy land. They've done mission work in Hungary. All these things they got to do would not have been possible if they were still in our hometown in China.

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Thank you Lord! For everything!


Sincerely,

Your child Dali

It Has Been...

a blessed year.
As much as I didn't like 2009 for the many unfortunate events that had shaken my perfect little world, this past year had taught me to put my eyes on the things above more than any other year. God used 09 to show me that He is what matters, not the things He give, because He also take away, and I need to be okay with either, not just receive receive receive, I also need to let go let go let go.

Living in Boston is lonely. I only see Tim at night when he comes home from work. The rest of the time I am all by myself, except when I go teach piano or go to church. However, looking at the Christmas cards we received, I couldn't deny the fact that we have so many people all over the world who care and love us.

Also on Christmas, we had a party of over 10 people at our house; and the day after that, we had friends to go on road trip with to DC. On new year's eve, we had friends counting down with us; and on new year's day all the way to Sunday, we had friends to play board games with, watch movies with, and eat meals with.

Even though I complained that 6 of our dear friends moved away all at once in the summer, I now know that I just had to let go of that and not let it cripple me into self-pity. God will always bring wonderful people into my life, I can't just keep dwelling in the past and be blinded by it to the point of ignoring the blessings I have now. Boston is a transient city, people come and go, and that's is the reality.

I am looking forward to 2010 and the people I will get to meet in this new year.

I am praying for a mentor, a church community and two more things which I cannot reveal right now.

Mourning For A Lost

Our dear friends' father, who had been fighting a coma after a severe stroke, has past on to be with our Lord yesterday in Hong Kong. May our Lord give the family peace and comfort.
I posted about this incident earlier, and here's is the blog again from his children, http://wakeupwithdad.blogspot.com/