2009 IS NEAR

I wish 2008 would last longer. I have never been sicker in such a long time. I came down with a flu/cold few days ago. Since then, my mood has been blue and my energy has been low. I didn't do much, or for that matter, talk much. I felt tired and worn out. There are many things that I am concerned about. Mainly my instability in life.

Recently we're talking about moving back to the West coast after my BU program is finished in May of 09. Moving back, the word "back" is what bothers me. We're not going "back" to anywhere we're familiar with, just another "new" place that we have to get use to and new people we need to get to know.

Moving is a great thing, because we don't really like Boston all that much, but I just don't know where to go to next. It's hard when Tim and I are from two different countries, even though Vancouver and San Jose are in the same timezone and are along the same coast, but which side of parents are we to move nearer to? How near and/or how far?

I know that in the end God will show us the way just as He had shown us the way to Boston when I was applying for grad school. Now it's time for a new chapter in our lives, and I feel anxious and uncertain. I don't want 2008 to end yet, I am not ready to face new obstacles ahead.

But maybe, maybe we should, because then ultimately, we'll have to settle down somewhere and start a family of our own. Maybe I shouldn't be so afraid of changes, because sometimes changes are good. I know by coming to Boston for 2 years, both of us have grown tremendously from little, naive college kids to semi-responsible adults. Hopefully the next move will get us to really become mature and confident individuals.

I am scared of many things, but doesn't mean that I can avoid them, like my graduation recital, my job hunt after graduation, moving...to having babies in the future. These things will come one at a time, and what I need to do is to trust God, because I don't do it enough, far far from enough.

I like what Dr. Phil said in one episode. He said just because you think you can avoid certain things in life by not making any choices, actually you've made the choice of not choosing, so the choice has been made FOR you in that case.

I hope that I will still be brave enough to choose what's been prepared ahead of me. Help me to not be afraid God! After all, I still have you and I still have Tim and both sides of our parents who constantly loved us.

Our pre-Christmas trip to Washington DC was a good reminder that even when we're in a brand new city where we know no one, we could still enjoy each others company and have a great time together.

Merry Christmas to All!!!

Wishing all of you a Merry Christmas! Happy holidays!
Laughter and Cheers everywhere!

Done Done Done!

I love to say the word "done" three times in a roll when I have actually accomplished something. Certainly right now I can say that, because I am really done with my semester. "Done done done" sounds like I am singing, but the meaning is also very self-explanatory to those who know me and know what I am going through in life.
This semester, I learned a lot more about piano that I would never imagine myself learning. I played comfortably in the piano jury, and my teacher told me that I did very well, which is extremely rare considering the fact that he's pretty strict and critical during usual semesters. Yay!!! I am so happy about it. Next semester will be my graduation recital, I can't wait to finish strong.

This weekend I was able to relax and enjoy spending time with friends. Here is a tea party that I attended on Saturday. I had so much fun!!!