8.01.2008
7.31.2008
3.01.2008
Anticipation
This is dedicated to my good friend Josh, who I think might be in Sydney...
Anticipation
One thing I realized today while doing laundry is that anticipation is what brings the joy into life. It's the "hype" that gets us all excited and creates the "want" in us. So, what I'm saying is that sometimes, it's better to not have something. I mean, think about this. I have a 13 inch tv bought from a garage sale for 10 bucks US Dollar (which is worth sh*t). So, Dali and I always wants to buy a new LCD flat screen TV, probably about 26-37 inches, depending on price and deals. So, every time I go to a shopping mall, I love to look at TV. I would tell Dali, "Hey look at this", and she'll say, "no, look at THIS." And that's our joy, our anticipation for a TV that we'll probably won't have for our while, and that is a GOOD thing. Because we anticipate it, we look forward to getting it, and it brings us joy and happiness looking at it together.
I am jobless, and let's imagine my favorite company calling me up for a interview, wouldn't that make me excited, wouldn't that make me the craziest Chinaman that Dali has ever seen? Wouldn't that make me do all the necessary preparation I can to get the job I want? And let's say in the interview, things go perfectly, I get the job, with a high salary, and when I get home, wouldn't I have the greatest temptation in the world to brag? Wouldn't I be filled with great joy because I'll be "anticipating" my new job?
I would be anticipating what my "new" life will look like, and dreaming and imagining of what my future will look like, and I'll have joy, excitement, happiness, and etc and etc...
Then I'll work 9-5, maybe longer, and days go by, then weeks go by, soon years go by, then what?
How is it that so many people don't like their job in this world?
What changed?
Anticipation, the anticipation is gone.
I honestly don't think having what we want is really what we want. I think we're suppose to anticipate, to hope, to dream, and to look forward to things that will happen. Because, that's the moment. That's the moment of greatest joy. The moment when things hasn't happen yet, when it's still new and fresh, and when we wait to get it.
2 Corinthians 4:18, "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
Live each day, each hour, each moment, anticipating. Hope, dream, imagine the greater things to come.
2.25.2008
Life in Boston
Boston. So, here's my perspective of our lives in Boston so far. I got to say that it's been hard adjusting to Boston. Not so much the weather or anything, but just to settle into a new place, starting a new life, and especially looking for a job. We've been lucky and blessed to find a good church, and we're slowly setting into it and meeting new people. It's true what people say about serving, because it feels a lot different than just going to the service and listening. But the serving still takes time to adjust for me, since I haven't really serve in church ever since I graduated from high school.
Marriage life has been really rewarding. It was a little rough last year, but since, it's been getting a lot smoother and better. I realized what a jerk I am all the time, and I can't imagine what I would do if I didn't have Dali to "hang in" there with me. I feel like an emotional wreck sometimes, and as always, the person closes to me gets all my crap. But God is supremely gracious and good to allow such a wonderful patient person to love me when I deserve it the least. I love you, Dali.
Growth. Definitely true. I guess no one ever stops growing in life, and the whole purpose of life is really just to grow. Although I feel the growing process is very difficult at times, and frustrating because it's beyond my control to change, but time has it's way of changing the worst of people. Growth is a very interesting process. I might have all the knowledge in the world of what I should do, and how I should be discipline, and responsible, but somehow the knowledge just isn't enough to change me. I don't know how to change, and worst of all, the deadly patterns continues to repeat itself time and time again. But growth did happen, and is happening, but the process is just "slow". In a fast pace world, it does make me feel like I falling further and further behind.
Finally, a reflection of what God has done. God gave me a college degree, a wonderful wife, and beautiful place called home in Boston, a church filled with great people, and He has really put all the frustrating and disappointing immigration process in it's right path. He's provided us with great parents, free money to spend and live on (where in the world does that happen?), a worry-free life (although there are many self-inflicted worries), and basically more than we ever need materially. He's provided us with everything.
One thing though, He has withheld a job from me at the moment. It's partly my fault, for being so on and off with the searching process, but let's just say I haven't gotten any luck with it yet. But I also feel it's one of those moments again. It's like when Dali and I first got marry, and the immigration process hasn't come in, but we decided to go ahead and drive across to border anyways, and then the whole frustrating process with the lawyer's assistant, and then just waiting. Months and months has gone by, and uncertainties everywhere everyday. But in the midst of it, we lack nothing. I feel it's the same with my search of job. It's frustration, no response, lots of waiting, and a month has gone by, and still waiting. But in the midst of it, again, we lack nothing.
So, today is February 25, 2008. A Monday, a start of the week. I woke up really late, because I stayed up to finish the Lord of the Rings: Two Towers on PS2 last night. Not a really good start to the week by any standards. But I have never started off good in anything. And if I have, the middle is always a mess. But God has a way of finishing what I left undone, and hopefully, there'll be more to come.
Marriage life has been really rewarding. It was a little rough last year, but since, it's been getting a lot smoother and better. I realized what a jerk I am all the time, and I can't imagine what I would do if I didn't have Dali to "hang in" there with me. I feel like an emotional wreck sometimes, and as always, the person closes to me gets all my crap. But God is supremely gracious and good to allow such a wonderful patient person to love me when I deserve it the least. I love you, Dali.
Growth. Definitely true. I guess no one ever stops growing in life, and the whole purpose of life is really just to grow. Although I feel the growing process is very difficult at times, and frustrating because it's beyond my control to change, but time has it's way of changing the worst of people. Growth is a very interesting process. I might have all the knowledge in the world of what I should do, and how I should be discipline, and responsible, but somehow the knowledge just isn't enough to change me. I don't know how to change, and worst of all, the deadly patterns continues to repeat itself time and time again. But growth did happen, and is happening, but the process is just "slow". In a fast pace world, it does make me feel like I falling further and further behind.
Finally, a reflection of what God has done. God gave me a college degree, a wonderful wife, and beautiful place called home in Boston, a church filled with great people, and He has really put all the frustrating and disappointing immigration process in it's right path. He's provided us with great parents, free money to spend and live on (where in the world does that happen?), a worry-free life (although there are many self-inflicted worries), and basically more than we ever need materially. He's provided us with everything.
One thing though, He has withheld a job from me at the moment. It's partly my fault, for being so on and off with the searching process, but let's just say I haven't gotten any luck with it yet. But I also feel it's one of those moments again. It's like when Dali and I first got marry, and the immigration process hasn't come in, but we decided to go ahead and drive across to border anyways, and then the whole frustrating process with the lawyer's assistant, and then just waiting. Months and months has gone by, and uncertainties everywhere everyday. But in the midst of it, we lack nothing. I feel it's the same with my search of job. It's frustration, no response, lots of waiting, and a month has gone by, and still waiting. But in the midst of it, again, we lack nothing.
So, today is February 25, 2008. A Monday, a start of the week. I woke up really late, because I stayed up to finish the Lord of the Rings: Two Towers on PS2 last night. Not a really good start to the week by any standards. But I have never started off good in anything. And if I have, the middle is always a mess. But God has a way of finishing what I left undone, and hopefully, there'll be more to come.
2.19.2008
2.17.2008
Boston Winter
Boston is a beautiful city, especially when it snows. When I first came, I was greatly impressed with the architectures of the city and the high fashion of the people here. I would always gaze toward the downtown area where I could see skyscrapers and redbrick buildings, and somehow those things would make me breath deeper and slower. Since I came here for half a year now, I slowly got used to the buildings, and they don't seem as impressive to me anymore because I've been in a few of these buildings, and they're beat up inside, trust me, they're really really old. However, the natural beauty of Boston began to capture me. I love seeing snow on the streets, on the tree branches, in the fields, in the lakes. I love breathing in the cleanest air I've ever breathed in, especially coming from Los Angeles where the air pollution is the worst in the country. I love watching birds stand on top of a frozen lake, and not making up these stuff, but Tim and I actually saw a turkey walking on a street and a swan resting in a parking lot. These things captivates me, and slowly I am getting used to here, after so many months. School will end one day, work can relocate, but Boston is always going to be a part of my memory, a part of who I am.
Now that Tim and I watch movies, we would get excited if the movies are taking places in Boston, or the actors grew up in Boston before they became famous. We would take pride in the fact that we're also from Boston.
Now that Tim and I watch movies, we would get excited if the movies are taking places in Boston, or the actors grew up in Boston before they became famous. We would take pride in the fact that we're also from Boston.
1.11.2008
教會
我爸爸的教會是一個很小的教會。裡面的人也都很純樸。有的人覺得我們的會友很老年化，很 ghetto。但是他們實在是很親切，又很熱情。他們的笑容是沒有詭詐的，他們的談話是沒有紛爭的，他們來教會就是來作教會的一分子，為教會的事出力。我越來越喜歡爸爸的這個小教會。因為在 San Jose 這樣高科技的城市要找到如此樸實的一群人已經是絕無僅有了。
12.14.2007
Snow
I love snow. It's so pretty. Yesterday Tim and I went to downtown Boston to have lunch. On the way back, we caught a snowstorm. We were so glad that we took the train and did not drive because you cannot see any lines on the road. It's impossible to drive in the snow too because your car would either get stuck in the snow or it would skid and roll wherever it pleases. We finally got back home safely and I almost missed the entrance to my house because the snow covered all the tracks and roads. The cement and the grass look all the same---white. haha
This morning when we woke up, our car was covered in snow. Tim got out to shuffle the snows and I helped him get rid of the snows on the car because after the snow gets old, it's going to turn into ice, and it'll be harder to get rid of ice than fluffy snow.
Afterwards we built a snowman together. It was so much fun!!! >_<
11.04.2007
10.29.2007
My Cute Daddy
My daddy emailed me this. so sweet ^_^ I love my dad. I am his little piggy.
"Dear Dali,
I saw a picture of Pig, so that I thought you.
And copy it to you, my little pig. 左手拿刀，右手拿叉，贪吃的小猪猪！
Haha.
Say hi to Tim.
Dad"
"Dear Dali,
I saw a picture of Pig, so that I thought you.
And copy it to you, my little pig. 左手拿刀，右手拿叉，贪吃的小猪猪！
Haha.
Say hi to Tim.
Dad"
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